i dont know what to do.
i hope someone can help me.
but then again.
i dont want anyone to help me.

i want to handle this on my own.
:(

i can be strong.
i hope crying helps.

stray away from the majority.

why should everyone follow everyone?

BE DIFFERENT.

a friend once asked me while browsing thru my photos.

"your friends are very different from each other. and u too"

so i said "isnt that nice? :) if all of us are the same its no fun"

just like life.

if everyone follow everyone.

its not so fun.

thats why some chose to be different.

people may stare people may talk.

just cos they arent like them.

or

they arent like us.

pause

and reflect.

chocolate milk at midnight.

should really be sleeping already.

i hear thunder. everyone should sleep with their windows open tonight.

even when it rains.

and even when the rain starts coming in.

sometimes i wonder,

how much effort is enough effort.

how much time is enough time.

how much patience is enough patience.

when we say

its good, is it really good?

when we say

its bad, is it really bad?

how good can it get?

how bad can it get?

when one gets sad.

he/she gets really really sad.

only he/she knows,

even if it hurts like crazy.

we only see life from our own perspective.

what is it like thru the eyes of others?

what really is trust?

i hope there's a storm tonight.

ive been sleeping late these days. like 1/2am etc.

getting restless at work.

but still doing my stuff.

but i cant seem to get to sleep.

even tho im tired.

i hate reality. :(

its too much of a torture.

i hate differences.

i hate that humans got so many things to worry about.

i hate reality.

why do we even have feelings.

"so we can feel love"

aww how sweet.

but life isnt just that.

she's awesome.